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Manic Scott

By Scott Bennett

It starts with a lucid dream that I had ... I was walking to a football field at my high school that all of the school was in the stands waiting for me, but I came from behind to where the cheerleaders and dance team were. I remember a girl yelling, "Hey Scott!" From the platform, then another girl saying: "Look, smile!" A third daughter ran towards me to take a picture of me with his camera. Before she did, I looked to my left and saw my girlfriend and she said hello to me very excited and my body filled with joy and enthusiasm warm. There was a rush. Quickly I looked back to the camera and smiled. The flash blinded me for a minute and a half-second that I realized I was dreaming and then when I looked back to my girlfriend I realized it was now my ex-girlfriend because I am now aware that it was just a dream. A wave of dark depression swarmed my bowels. Once clear, I realized that she had just broken off with me a few days before. At that time, I wanted to die. And I did. My body, my soul began to fall on grass, but has fallen into an abyss of darkness and memory that I woke my body feeling like I was lying on my death bed basement. This dream, I think what drove my episode a month of madness.

The week before this dream I suffered great depression. I was very sick for almost a month with bronchitis and congestion. I finally tested positive for mononucleosis, after a painful journey of the ER resulted in a blood sample. I was in excruciating pain for several days because of a severe sore throat. The pain was unbearable. I could not sleep or eat. The pain was radiating into my jaw and my tongue. I was absolutely miserable. When I told my girlfriend that I had mono reply to me by the text was "..." Dot, dot, dot. It does not make him too happy with me, I suppose. She broke up with me three days later. I loved him and could not get over it. This was the main reason for my depression. I felt alone and sick. Distraught, I was on the verge of losing my sanity. I did shortly after.

During that week, my best friend of 12 years told me he would be returned to a residential hospital for 4-5 months with contact only by letter. So I lost my girlfriend, best friend, and physical health in the week. Mono of course made me miss school for a month so I also lost my chance for a higher degree. I was about to lose my future. These events made me lose everything I loved. I keep all the memories before this point because, after these events I'm yet another point of mine, my mind.

I might as well have been on acid for 30 days. I was hallucinating. I heard voices. My writings appear to be schizophrenic. I spent all my money in one week, while a big waste. I could watch TV in 3-D, I thought I could walk on water, I thought I could time travel, and I thought I would be able to fly. Very late in my episode I really thought I was the second coming of Jesus Christ and that I would save the world. These are some things on top of my head that I remember to. I do not remember. This may sound unrealistic, but I assure you that I think about these things 100%. I was convinced that I was a great course, a super-hero. I spent days trying days of travel in time. It felt like a movie. It was like being high on life. I was manic. I know it's hard to believe, but all these things have become my passions. I felt for acquiring these skills and my explanation of everything that I was stuck in a dream. I woke up this day I still believe that in a lucid dream. And for the next 30 days, I lived like him.

The first thing I remember is to take 3-D glasses, a roll of toilet paper, and my iPod and GE.